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A sharing by Pastor James Ho for this song:

Years ago, I had a problem with my eyes. When we got the chance for a home visit, I booked an appointment with the ophthalmologist. To my horror, she told me what I had was “Central retina vein occlusion” on my right eye. It began with blurry vision which would lead to sudden permanent blindness in that eye. She immediately referred me to a Retina Specialist in a world renowned hospital.

After careful examination of my eye, the Retina Specialist, Dr. Wong said that my eye was already in high risk of blindness. I needed immediate treatment. The doctor also said that it just so happened in the same year that the medical expense for the eye treatment was waived for my age.

Torn between putting aside the Lord’s work in order to proceed with the treatment to save my eye, I was at a loss in making the decision. But the doctor warned me not to procrastinate the treatment. I could go blind anytime. Finally, I accepted the treatment and Dr. Wong immediately proceeded with the first eye injection.

After the eye injection, it was all blurry and I needed complete rest for 4 days before I could slowly see again. But Dr. Wong cautioned me not to strain my eyes. I had to restrict my time reading books, watching TV and working on my computer.

When I went for my 2nd injection, Dr. Wong told me that my condition was worse than he had expected. I would need at least 6 injections in order to recover from the retina occlusion. That means, I would be detained for at least 6 months and that rendered me useless during this treatment period. It was like a “death” sentence to me because it seemed as if God removed me from serving Him. I felt deep pain and agony thinking that I was no longer worthy to serve God. I cried to ABBA Yahweh to forgive me of any wrongdoings that could have caused the dismissal from serving Him.

Then, I heard a gentle voice saying, “I will keep you as the apple of My eye. I will hide you under the shadow of My wings.” What a comforting assurance from ABBA Father and I wept with tears of joy. I learned to use the treatment period to be quiet and wait upon God. It surely turned my adversity into blessing and I have a deeper communion with God every day. And God enlightened me to write this song: “I am the work of Your Hand”.

几年前，我的眼睛出现问题。当我有机会回家探访时，我看了一个眼科专科医生。我很惊讶的听到她的诊断：我的右眼是“眼膜堵塞”。病症是：开始看东西模糊，但之后会突然瞎眼的。她马上为我联系和约见一位在一家出名的医院工作的眼膜专家。

经过详细的检查，眼膜专家王医生说我眼睛的情况已经十分危险，随时会瞎眼。我需要马上接受治疗。他还补充说刚好今年开始，对于在我的年纪以上的患者，这眼睛的治疗是免费的。

当时我心中有很大的挣扎，是否要停顿我对神的所有服侍来接受眼睛的治疗。我感觉到很无助。王医生提醒我不要耽误眼睛的治疗，因为我会随时瞎眼的。最终，我接受了这眼睛治疗。当天，王医生马上给我开始第一个眼睛注射疗程。

经过第一次的疗程，一开始眼睛模糊，过了四天完全的休息后，才慢慢能看见东西。但王医生提醒我不要让眼睛过度疲劳，尽量减少看书、电脑或电视等等。

当我去接受第二次的疗程时，王医生说我眼睛的情况比他想象的更严重。我需要最少6次眼睛的注射才有机会康复。那就是说，我要滞留在家6个月，什么都做不了，就好像废人一样。对我来说，就好像是被判“死刑”一样，因为我感觉到神除去我服侍他的职分，我被革职了。我心中十分悲痛、难受，因为我不配服侍神了。我呼求阿爸雅伟，若有什么导致我被革职，求神饶恕我一切的过犯。

就在那时，我听到一个温柔的声音对我说：“我会保护你像我眼中的瞳仁，我会隐藏你在我的翅膀的荫下”。我立时感觉到神的应许和安慰，我顿时流出欢呼的泪水。在治疗的过程中，我学习到安静和等候神。我所经历到的是从“祸”中得福，每天我都享受与神更深入的交流。而神也启发我写这首诗歌：“使我生命焕然一新”。